I always thought I will die before Mummy after Daddy's passing. I prepared everything that is needed to be prepared for my own's passing. My passwords, things to do, eulogy and even picture to be use. Until Mummy's is diagnosed with cancer that all of us is so occupied that I forgot my own's planning. With Mummy now gone to heaven. 

I thought I'll be prepared for her passing as her condition is deteriorating and it is unlike Daddy's which is very sudden and we have no chance to tell him goodbye and we love him. Yet, the separation from them is still very painful.

Looking at my own's plan... my farewell letter to my loved ones including to Mummy is heartbreaking. I just miss her so much that I don't even feel like doing anything; including going to work.

Mummy. I miss you. I love you.