Mengapa terjadi
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Haruskah ku meneruskan lagi
Kisah kita yang telah kita bina bersama
Kini telah hancur karena kau memilih dia
Ku tidak menyangkakan
Engkau seperti ini
Kau curangi diriku
Tanpa aku sedari

Bodohnya aku
Ku bisa mempercayakan kamu
Tanpa ku sedari
Kau mempermainkan cintaku

Sayang
Haruskah kau memperlakukan aku
Sebegini
Apakah salah diriku ini terhadapmu
Sehingga engkau sanggup menduakan cintaku

Mungkin aku bukan yang terbaik buatmu
Ku terima apa yang kau lakukan padaku
Aku kesali dan berasa kecewa terhadap dirimu

Maafkan aku telah mengecewakanmu
Hati ini tak dapat merubahkan apa pun
Diri ini telah dimiliki tanpa ku sedari

Mungkin aku bukan yang terbaik buatmu
Ku terima apa yang kau lakukan padaku
Aku kesali dan berasa kecewa terhadap dirimu

Ku amat menyesali mengenali dirimu
Aku berjanji akan meneruskan
Hidupku tanpamu

There are times when a woman has to say what's on her mind
Even though she knows how much it's gonna hurt
Before I say another word, let me tell you, I love you
Let me hold you close and say these words as gently as I can

There's been another man that I've needed and I've loved
But that doesn't mean I love you less
And he knows he can't possess me and he knows he never will
There's just this empty place inside of me that only he can fill

Torn between two lovers, feelin' like a fool
Lovin' both of you is breakin' all the rules
Torn between two lovers, feelin' like a fool
Lovin' you both is breakin' all the rules

You mustn't think you've failed me
Just because there's someone else
You were the first real love I ever had
And all the things I ever said
I swear they still are true
For no one else can have the part of me I gave to you

Torn between two lovers, feelin' like a fool
Lovin' both of you is breakin' all the rules
Torn between two lovers, feelin' like a fool
Lovin' you both is breakin' all the rules

I couldn't really blame you if you turned and walked away
But with everything I feel inside, I'm asking you to stay

Torn between two lovers, feelin' like a fool
Lovin' both of you is breakin' all the rules
Torn between two lovers, feelin' like a fool
Lovin' you both is breakin' all the rules

Torn between two lovers
Feelin' like a fool
Lovin' both of you is breakin' all the rules

Today marked the 11th Death Anniversay of my beloved Grandma. A week before my birthday. The birthday celebration where each teenager would look forward to. To the freedom and the independence that comes at that age. In the midst of all the preparation for the celebration. A phone call from my uncle had it shattered down to pieces. -  That is how I celebrated my birthday. I just hated her at that moment on my journey to hometown. Celebration was one thing . . . "Why at the time where each teenager look forward to have to be like this?"

Just Give Me A Reason!

Yes, this is a music from P!nk. Just got addicted to this song after my cousin posted this on her FB many months ago. I don't know why, but this is one song which I got addicted before all the disappearance game started. It was like a Déjà vu kind of thing.

Stay . . . I would have told him to. But as times passes. I don't think this will be the way it should be. I am losing myself in this emotional battle. Apart from liking this song... Think I should not make him stay if he had already intended to go.

It is really rare that I would listen to Chinese genre music whereby I'm a totally banana. To my surprise, I was once addicted to this song after it was sent to me. I don't know why.  Probably because of the lyrics which does explains in some way how I hoped it would be.

Came across this song and it just got stuck. How often is one being betrayed or betray someone?

People say you don't know what you've got till it's gone. Truth is, you knew what you had, you just never thought you'd lose it. - yesiammyownshrink