Raining in the morning seems to have very bad effect on me. I thought as time passes, things will be better. But it is not. Every night I will be yearning for him. I got very scared for no apparent reason. I'm not was it because I will be out of his life soon as it already a year soon to the day he asked to break up with me. Or was it because we will be parting ways and there will be no longer for us to be back together no matter what I do to get him. 

I'm no longer his priority, although I never had been. His phone list no longer has my number. I will be blocked and ignored. I'm so scared. It got worse overtime... not better. There will be nights of sleeplessness and will be weeping calling his name.

What can I do? When will the pain go away? 

I promised to be good to you. I did. 

I don't think any of my reasons will make sense to you anymore. When I am preparing to leave everything I have for you, you leave me like a rock.