On this date in 2014, I held your hand. Both of us are nervous. But, I am so fluttered that I had this handsome man holding me, the one who will be holding my hand for the rest of my life. You sitting by the pillar while waiting for me to get off work. You came to meet me after work. We had dinner and movie, like any ordinary couple would. We watched Neo, 8pm. After that you often came by for lunch with me at the mall.

On this date 22 April 2021. Today, marked the 7th years of us together if we are still holding on to each other... 

A year ago on this date, I joined the new company in Q Sentral. A new beginning for the both of us. To achieve our dreams, our plans, our future... or was it just mine? 

It is also the date, in 2020 we celebrated our 6th year anniversary apart due to the pandemic. Two months later, you left me stranded in the deserted land of depression and pain.

You made this note is because, often times randomly I would ask you when did we meet or when you held my hands. I would be throwing tantrum or being emotional when you forgot the dates. You pretended you forgot, but you made this note.

Thank you for the reminder Bb

~ I still do not have the heart to pack up your things, and our things. I do not know what am I waiting for, but one thing for sure is that you will not be coming back.

有钱不是幸福，幸福是。。。
你累了，有人心疼你
你病了，有人照顾你
你老乐，有人陪伴你

I know money is not everything, I wanted the best for you and for our future. I tried to make as much as I can, I wanted to prove to my parents that you and I, both of us are capable.
I didn't know that doing so you will stop wanting me. I asked you to take me away. But you never did, reasons after reasons.

Or was it just an excuse for you? I believed the 幸福 is true. I wanted to be by your side in your ups and down; when you're sick and unwell; when you're tired and especially when we're both wrinkled and old.

But, when you're down, you rather go for other option instead of to me. I didn't ask for big house or luxury car or even a grand wedding. I just wanted a simple wedding. I didn't ask for carat of diamond ring - just a simple wedding band to make me your MRS is all I asked for. I just wanted you to be by my side and I be at yours.

I looked for reason to forget and move on. Two weeks later, I am back at square one.

我不能忘记我们的一切。
我真的很想念你。