It would have been a long love journey if we've been still together to-date. We've known each other inside out, we've grown so much together. We've seen each other being fat and ugly to slim and fit. We've found each other's weaknesses and strength. We've encouraged each other to pursue the dream.

Everyday is a battle especially when night fall. Looking at the clock ticking away the minute, never a day passes by without looking at old memories. You have no idea how fast my heat beats when I see you online. I wanted to text you, to call you.. but I am so so so afraid that you will ignore me or just goes offline.

I'm not sure if I should stop hoping that you'll appear at my door, or to hear your voice again. I've started to give up hope. I'm in a lost not knowing what to do with the place we call home. I do not if I should continue the work where we left off. Wanting you to be part of my every achievement ends up in disappointment. I do not know if I should stop waiting, time is ticking. I could not reach anywhere with this state. Knowing my life plans would not be achieved now. But I do not want to be waiting in despair when I could have a glimpse of hope in the remaining plans.