How much more can I hold on? I wanted to move on, move forward. Can I do that? I wanted so much to have both of them in my life. While I can only have one. I have dragged the whole scenario a very long time. Who else would understand yourself better other than yourself? I can tell you frankly, I don't. I don't even know what I wanted now. I am so tired. I have been tired. Mentally. Not physically. I can still work and go on with my everyday life. But mentally I am so tired. I wanted a way out. I wanted to go away. I wanted to leave all... BUT I CAN'T!



• Emilie Brandt – Hold On

I drink it up, it's never enough
To wash the pain away and I don't know who to trust
You’ll be ok, that's what they say
Sometimes I feel like laying down and not getting up
I think I've had enough
Even diamonds turn to dust
There's a void in my heart where there used to be love

Do I bend or break?
Don't know what I can take
But I feel like holding on
There's a light in me, though it's hard to see
I'll let it burn until it's gone
I feel like holding on

I live to please, but this life's diseased
Why does it feel so wrong?
They tell me to be strong
I hold on for so long, refusing to let go
Because I know now that I'm down
To watch it all unfold, it's never enough
Even diamonds turn to dust
There's a void in my heart where there used to be love

Do I bend or break?
Don't know what I can take
But I feel like holding on
There's a light in me, though it's hard to see
I'll let it burn until it's gone
I feel like holding on

I feel like holding on

Do I bend or break?
Don't know what I can take
But I feel like holding on
There's a light in me, though it's hard to see
I'll let it burn until it's gone
I feel like holding on