You're sitting with your friends chattering and laughing. But yet you feel empty and sad inside.


You're like going through an endless dark tunnel; feeling tired and scared to continue. You hope for a light and a guiding hand. You reached out and all you can feel is emptiness and darkness. You wanted to call your friends but you're too afraid that they are too busy with their life to be handling your negativity.

"Nobody wants negativity, nobody wants to be influenced with negative vibes..." 
I would tell myself, that is when I would rather keep to myself and not spreading the negative vibes around. Nobody would want to hear you rant about the same issue repetitively all the time. They have their own life and problem to deal with as well.

You're frustrated with yourself at the same time. "When is this going to end? Why did I choose this path?"



People around you are telling you that you need a break, be positive, that's how you learn, think logically... at the same time you're shivering and dwelling in your own negative thoughts.

Am I doing something wrong?

Am I not communicating correctly? Do I have a communication barrier?

Am I to blame for all these mess that the client is complaining?

Am I going to make it in programming?

I don't like this

What is wrong with me?

That's it. I WANT TO QUIT!!!

Dealing with the low self-esteemed, low self-confidence... where am I heading to? I can't do anything. I'm stuck, not going anywhere, not moving anywhere. While the world and opportunity is passing me by.

I do believe, "Law of Attraction"... but when you're in all negative state of mind, where you're hoping to get some positivity, it sounded impossible.