I'm extremely scared...

As Doctor says there is around 6 months to a year to go. Keeping my fingers crossed that it will exceed the time given. Days after my dad's passing, I told her not to abandon me. But having to see her go through this, it is heartbreaking.

As the time ticks, the heart beat faster as day passes. Everyday I wakes up being afraid, that it will be the last I will see my mother. I know I should be positive every morning when I wakes up with. I have mother with me today, and to make the best out of it. I can't help it being afraid that I don't have my mum with me anymore.
As it was a ticking bomb in her, time is passing by quickly. I missed the day when both my parents are around bugging me and nagging me. I can't turn back time.
Every seconds with my mum counts. But having the thought, just paralyse me. I don't know why; but I've been breaking down very much after coming back from the hospital.