It hurts so much

Drenched in my own tears. Eyes are swollen. Dark circles are more prominent than ever.

Drowning in my own tears. Why is it so difficult even I'm the one initiated it? It would be unfair if we are to drag on this way. I wanted to be fair to all party. I wouldn't like it at all if I'm being an option. I wanted to be the priority in any relationship, who wouldn't want to?