I hate the moment when suddenly my anger turns into tears.
Saturday, May 19, 2018
Tears are words the heart can’t express. Anger is an emotion like any other, and we have as much right to feel it as sadness or joy. I know being angry is not good for anyone. Instead of throwing tantrum or shouting at each other, words spoken are hurtful when you're angry. I have resorted to stay quiet and walked away when I am angry. Yes, I AM An Angry Bird!
I do not go angry without any reason. But there are these things which actually irritates me, putting up with it one at a time is fine. I did told you not to irritate me with that, and you'll do it cause you think it is funny. Picking fights are just your way of getting things interesting to you. But when all these little things come all at once... I transformed to ANGRY BIRD! (sounded more like Hulk though).
The anger and frustration could turned to tears... you could just weep for hours till you are actually out of breath. Sometimes, all these vent up anger and frustration would just come clouding the eyes and stream down the cheek unexpectedly. Watching a funny movie and not finding it funny at all is when you know that something is terribly wrong with you! You NEEDED OUT!
Am I expecting too much all the time? It seems to get harder as time goes. Am I expecting too much overtime as a couple? Do you expected more of the person when you're in a relationship? Or was it just me? Or that the effort of the couple faded after they got each other?
I didn't ask for fancy dinner or luxury trip, although that would be a bonus to have. I wanted someone who would pay attention to me, simple gesture of holding my hand when we were walking, a kiss on the forehead when we meet after a long day, a message to check if I've had my lunch or dinner when you're not around would make me very happy. We used to have so much to talk about over the phone, hours. As time passes, it came to the point where we do not update each other on things anymore.
I have never demanded time to be with you when you're busy with work, important meetings or such. But I just want your undivided attention when we're together. I didn't request for a 24 hour of your time. That mere few minutes when we were having dinner or over a cup of tea, is that too much to ask of you?
If making plans to meet for just a day out of 7 days a week is too much to ask, I don't think I am worth your time at all. Standing me up date is not something a girl would like unless you have a very good reason to do so. And please not the last minute when you're expected to be there when they are looking forward to it the whole week.
Sometimes I'm not even sure if I'm angry with you or with myself. I should be treated better. I should be respected. But why am I still around when I can and should walk out? Why am I still holding on to something which is not even doing me any good?
The pain is the only thing that’s telling me I’m still alive.
I do not go angry without any reason. But there are these things which actually irritates me, putting up with it one at a time is fine. I did told you not to irritate me with that, and you'll do it cause you think it is funny. Picking fights are just your way of getting things interesting to you. But when all these little things come all at once... I transformed to ANGRY BIRD! (sounded more like Hulk though).
The anger and frustration could turned to tears... you could just weep for hours till you are actually out of breath. Sometimes, all these vent up anger and frustration would just come clouding the eyes and stream down the cheek unexpectedly. Watching a funny movie and not finding it funny at all is when you know that something is terribly wrong with you! You NEEDED OUT!
Am I expecting too much all the time? It seems to get harder as time goes. Am I expecting too much overtime as a couple? Do you expected more of the person when you're in a relationship? Or was it just me? Or that the effort of the couple faded after they got each other?
I didn't ask for fancy dinner or luxury trip, although that would be a bonus to have. I wanted someone who would pay attention to me, simple gesture of holding my hand when we were walking, a kiss on the forehead when we meet after a long day, a message to check if I've had my lunch or dinner when you're not around would make me very happy. We used to have so much to talk about over the phone, hours. As time passes, it came to the point where we do not update each other on things anymore.
I have never demanded time to be with you when you're busy with work, important meetings or such. But I just want your undivided attention when we're together. I didn't request for a 24 hour of your time. That mere few minutes when we were having dinner or over a cup of tea, is that too much to ask of you?
If making plans to meet for just a day out of 7 days a week is too much to ask, I don't think I am worth your time at all. Standing me up date is not something a girl would like unless you have a very good reason to do so. And please not the last minute when you're expected to be there when they are looking forward to it the whole week.
Sometimes I'm not even sure if I'm angry with you or with myself. I should be treated better. I should be respected. But why am I still around when I can and should walk out? Why am I still holding on to something which is not even doing me any good?
The pain is the only thing that’s telling me I’m still alive.
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